17 November 2015


Yesterday, the realization hit me that-
I started the job at the flower shop, the job that saved me and my son (and our cats)
(read earlier posts from last year)-
on 12.13.14
And, today, I was thinking, "I wonder if there is some significance to that date, numerologically...?"
I found this on the web today http://feliciabender.com/numerology/whats-the-significance-of-the-date-121314/
Any Numerologists want to weigh in?
In my Akashic Record, it is written, that my life lessons for this lifetime are twofold, and interrelated:
"Confidence" (through Freedom) and "Freedom" (through Responsibility).
I have chosen at the level of my Soul, so many situations/relationships in which I am or have been (really, inexcusably) Abused,
all mentally/emotionally/psychically- because of this life lesson of "Confidence". (The abusive situations meant to propel me unto a path/way of being of feeling much needed confidence in myself, and learning to stop seeking outside approval)
I am still and will be processing this for however long, since it is a new realization, about the "12.13.14"...
Because, just before I found this work, I was so poor, I couldn't even afford to buy a single roll of toilet paper for my son and myself, or food for our cats, etc....
Being united with this work at the florist has brought us financial stability, given me a new place to feel creatively inspired, and so much more that I can not say at this time. I am relishing the Beauty of this. I am so appreciative and grateful for all of the experiences.... The past few years have been a wonderment to me...
There have been some physical issues, but I feel that they are direct components of 1) Menopause (in which I am deeply swimming, or dancing) and 2) Ascension.... The combination of which (plus my son being in the thick of teenage pubescent mayhem)

10 November 2015

My Prayer, as Always is... "Thank You" (FB post now before Bed...)

One year ago, I couldn't even afford to buy a single roll of toilet paper for my family. Today, I bought a 12 pack! Thank You Mother/Father God, for everything that I have been through, for keeping us safe, for the strengthening of my Faith, and that I have learned to Know that- I AM... loved... held... cared for... safe... Aho! Come What May... Let there Be Light, Let there Be Love...

Facebook post on my own wall, this evening

If I'm crazy for doing this, then so be it...

" Yup. I did. I stopped my car at the top of Mill Hill two nights ago. 'Held up a line of traffic...
because I saw that frightened Mouse frantically trying to get cross the street, near miss after near miss with tires on both sides of the road.
I knew It needed for everything to STOP, just calm down so It could get It's bearings. The traffic and the lights must have been very confusing...
And I could see in my mirrors that some car behind me was certainly going to kill it.
'd opened my car door to watch the street behind me. If anyone was irritated, I heard nothing of it.
The cars stopped. The Mouse took a Breath- and scurried across the street, and disappeared down into the storm drain.
I closed my door, put the car in drive, put on my blinker, and headed over to Family....
Whew! "

Just a Note:
I've been having a rough 2 months, physically and energetically, but I am starting to feel better in my body and in my energy, so... I should be back to work real soon...

Ursula Carrie

18 October 2015

A Little Bit of Fire in My Gut just Now... About Parenting, "Spiritual Parenting"

Today's Post on Earth~ Spirit Medicine Facebook page - I've thought these things but never talked about them. I had ample inspiration today, though...

" A parent is answering the intuitive call of another Soul.
They are giving them a physical form and a certain set of life circumstances with which to begin their journey of Expansiveness through the polarities of Earth-Life experience.
These sets of life circumstances, DNA makeup, social settings, etc. are designed at the higher levels of being to give the newly incarnating Soul the setting to go about and fulfill their Life Plan.
Often the "parents" (caretakers, for a time...
, actually) are also being given certain elements with which they also learn Life Lessons that they have planned.... BUT JUST BECAUSE ONE HAS CONSENTED TO PROVIDE A NEWLY INCARNATING SOUL WITH A BODY- IT DOES NOT INCLUDE THE RIGHT TO HOLD THIS SOUL EMOTIONALLY HOSTAGE, or that They "Owe" You- anything.
That is the old paradigm model of parenting- "power and control", allegiance to (a self proclaimed) authority.
This is not the model of the New Earth into which we are evolving as a Collective Consciousness of Souls who revere the Diversity and Free Will Gift of Incarnating into this Earth experiment.
As a parent, or as I see it Guide, to an incarnating Soul, it is our duty and responsibility to make it our task to truly be open enough to SEE this Soul and understand who THEY are, unearth the Truth of what THEY NEED, as an Individual, to assist them in getting started on an Earth Journey that will feel satisfying to them.
Roberto, the long time best friend and travel companion and English interpreter for Medium Joao (known as "John of God") told me, back in 2007, back when my young son and I were on the Omega campus participating in the program that week (the details of which are included in the spiritual memoir I have been working on): "It's not his job to understand you. It's your job to understand him." Speaking, of course "him" of my young son. The energy transmission that accompanied this was life changing and profound. This was one of the events preparing me for my Soul Realignment and my initial training in the Akashic Records.....
Undoubtedly, there shall arise more on this topic of Spiritual Parenting....
Blessings, and (heart emoticon)
Ursula Carrie "

October 13, 2015 Earth~ spirit medicine Facebook post

All day long, yesterday and today I Am- cleaning, packing, purging, furniture rearranging, taking stuff to the attic and old broken things to the car and going to the recycle, bringing new better organizing shelving in, having a lot of delicious Sleeping, following the feeling in each moment, eating favorite foods (toasted poppy bagels with homemade scallion cream cheese and fresh smoked trout), remembering how to Love Myself, letting go of guilt and shame, deciding how I will do some things differently if I do them again, remembering other Things, feeding birds and squirrels, feeling how comfortable the animals and I are with each other, Deciding, working with the feeling that All Is Truly Well, Allowing the Moment to tell me What Is..... and remembering to relax my jaw and Breathe...
(heart emoticon) Love You,
Ursula Carrie

07 September 2015

Wadley and Me, September 6, 2015

Just thought I'd share a few minutes of
my 2 hour time yesterday with my buddy, Wadley.
I love and crave spending time with canine energy.
We aren't "allowed" to have a dog at our apartment,
so when I get called to take Wadley out, I make the most of it!
I've been going out with this guy for several years, now-
except for this past year that I didn't have a car.
But we're back. Being with Him has really taught me many
lessons on Faith and Trust, and how to hone my
abilities to communicate telepathically with an animal.
He's My Guru!
There's so much more I could say about
our relationship and what he means to me.
I Love him, and I am so Thankful- to sum it up!
XoXo Ursula Carrie